So the Patriarchy lies to women that they are the weak ones, emotional ones because masculinity is about being aggressive and selfish but women are the epitome, of strength, of leadership, of emotional intelligence,of providing and protecting. They work like men at work if not more , then go home to the 24 hour job with no breaks. Mother and wife. This is all Lillian knew from age 23, assuming you finished college at 21, if you do a Masters at 23. Started marriage and child rearing immediately. Have 3 kid in intervals of 4-6 years.
You are aceing it, infact you are the man! Successful family life and career! You are more than the man, you are the woman! So your last kid is becoming independent, your husband is probably having problems with sex and is focused on the life he built for himself while you took care of the kids and built him a home.
You are alone, kids independent, husband focused on his own life, suddenly you are all by yourself, all you know is being useful but nobody needs you anymore. Not much anyway! So you act like a lady but think like a man, it helped with your career. What do men do when they are lonely and lost?! They drink. They go on the prowl. But you are almost 50 and you are not single or planning for a divorce. Plus you are a woman of respectable standing in society. Wouldn’t want to ruin your impeccable record!
You go to Twitter, nobody you know is there. Noone your age there! Just men your kid’s age! From Kenya a place with 7 million unemployed men under 35 looking for a come up since they can’t afford a girlfriend. They’re brokies. You are drowning in attention but they are abit forthright with demands for money from the jump. So you drop them. Disillusioned.
Finally you meet this dark as tar wide eyed boy. He’s not as cunning and aggressive as the rest. You search the internet - no online presence. Good sign.Your heart starts racing. He’s innocent, even sweet! You are a woman of the world, you have raised a 25 year old, the kid won’t know what hit him. You lay the charm on thick. I love your eyes, so big! Are you big everywhere?! He’s sprung!
You chat endlessly, have phone sex,no nudes or video calls though! Got to be careful! You have a career, children and a marriage to think about. You send him a few dollars, he can’t believe his luck, a sophisticated woman abroad who wants to ferk him and give him money?! Holy mollie! His depressing life has a spark. His friends and family notice. 'Owino, you are different these days, did you meet someone?! ’ they ask knowingly.
She’s coming to Kenya, FINALLY! She asks you to book a short stay apartment somewhere really discreet! Good reviews from Booking.com in Kilimani. You don’t meet at the airport. Someone may see you together. You wait at the room. You open the door. You are trembling. You shut the door pull her to yourself and finally consumate your months long online situationship.
It’s like nothing you have ever experienced in your short broke life. She has a good 25 years experience in coitus. You didn’t stand a chance. Your mind starts falling like dominoes. You eat, do drugs, get drunk and do the dirty. The crystal meth you bought for her heightens every sensation you feel. Where has this woman been all my life, you ask yourself. She mothers you then she furthers you! UTOPIA!
You are satiated. You call your cousin, the only one who knows about this woman who has brought back the spark in your life. You stay together all evening deep into the night in the swanky apartment. You give him a push at 1am. Your sugar momma looks antsy and you know it’s time for Patrick to go. You return and she’s locked the door, you knock and pace nervously, what if she doesn’t open?! She opens the door slightly, you go in. She’s pushing you out! Feisty!!! You force your way in and hurriedly lock the door! Someone might see you and call attention.
You hold her with your strong lithe arms. "Baby, I’m sorry! " you mutter in your husky voice saddled with desire. You talk for 20 minutes and go have the most exhilarating make up sex imaginable. She rolls over and falls asleep. You can’t seem to get any sleep ! Your mind starts thinking about things you only think about in the middle of the night in a strange apartment. You remember your humble abode. Your sweet mother. After 10 minutes, you get out of bed and walk naked to the balcony, a dark presence awaits you patiently,you light up a blunt and start smoking ! You start to hear voices, you see a beautiful swimming pool. You dive. Your life flashes Infront of your eyes. Your mother. Your brothers and sisters. Your first love and finally your last ! You fade into oblivion.
PS
Everything that will happen to Lillian will be on the news from now on. 
until proven guilty.