Click!
The darkness fades to the hazy opaque of gossamer
Suddenly Im awake
What…what is this?
*Fleeting thoughts of me chasing a four headed rabbit down a candy coloured donut *
Click
Full consciousness kicks in
Oh… God damn
I am now really awake, another day.
Muddled thoughts…
Some annoying voice saying
“don’t forget you have to go see Mr hgsjdkgkl…”
It fades out.
We’ll that’s one less item I will not do today.
Why…what…this is…what is this?
Looking out the window, through the tear in my curtain…
plastic sun shining, check.
Animated birds singing, check.
Surreal playdough people running about their unending duties, check.
overwhelming feelings of futility and impending doom(it’s depression today I guess…), check.
A normal day again.
The view changes as my body strains to rise from my bed.
I can feel the snap, crack, creaking and groaning of my tired and aching…
“Soul”
Who said that?
None of them responds those assholes…living in my head, always making callous offhand statements and planting thoughts in my head…fuck you!
“FUCK YOU!!!” They respond.
Click click!!
My brain starting up
Oh crap…
I can already hear Heath Ledger’s deranged voice coming over the p.a system-
“Please unbuckle your seatbelts,
keep your arms and legs outside at all times and squirm in your seats.
Remember to throw out your children and hold on to your livestock
Do not hold on to your seats or enjoy the ride and please please feel free to scream
You’re welcome to try fighting and resisting, we enjoy seeing you struggle!”
I smile at the mental image of a roller coaster slowly making the slow ascent to the top of the rails, i can see the peak coming up and the
And the channel suddenly changes.
It’s a shirtless old man sitting in a rocking chair polishing his carrots.
And so it begins!
I shake my head frantically and the image melts away like chalk off of a blackboard slapped with a wet sponge…
And as I sit there on the edge of my bed, scratching my nuts with my left hand and my ass with my right, I wonder…
Was I wearing sandals to bed?
