Today I happened to be free in the house. After eating my lunch and had planned to take a siesta but instead happened have a moment of self-reflection on everything that has transpired this year.
It dawned to me that with only four days to December, I have been single the whole year! Even today, when am free the whole day, I do not have that need to call a peng over and spend the whole day with me. No, I am just comfortable alone.
Keep in mind that I love women. Just last night I had some really good sex with a 19yr peng. I made her squirt for the first time. We had sex all night and early in the morning I gave her fare to go back to her college. She is not after money, yet!
So, it is not that I do not like women. I have been sleeping with different women all throughout the year. But I have never dated any of them. Most have been inviting me out for dates after we smashed but I just do not find them that interesting to pursue them.
Their conversations with me are all similar, “I like you, but it is like you are not interested in me or are not serious with me. You just want to fuck”. I still get their messages if they can come over in the evening and I get to lay my pipe again.
This is how my year has been. No girl saved with a heart emoji, no girl saved as bby, babe, wife, wifey… just Ela 
Winnie 
Ivy 
and just plain names.
Unlike last year, I was deep in a relationship. Everywhere I went, she came along. Shop, club, restaurants, shags, you name it.
Now am going to these places alone and am at peace.
Regular sex and peace.
Do I want to be in a relationship again? No and Yes.
Yes. Because sex when u have feelings for each other is the best.
No. Because I have experienced losing feelings for a woman and she had it rough until I just cut her off. She didn’t want to leave.
